first you breathe out then you have to breathe in lash yourself repeatedly until it sticks, until it sticks under the eyelids, carry on cadaver festering interiors all hollow breach and vapor silhouette need medication, more medication coursing through your interstates all mad and great, confused and counterfeit kamikaze, sear the blood inside me guess who's got it figured out i'll let you in on something secret
i can disappear anytime i want to, time i feel you shuffle through my skin i am with you til the end
the way you use your imagination try to make it what you want it to be because i'm sorry i did what i did but it came naturally
and i give it all away just so i could say that well, i know, i know, i know, i know that you're gonna be okay anyway
well, i try to keep myself together after all the opportunities try to stay true to you and try to do what you wanted from me and i give it all away just to hear you say that well, i know, i know, i know, i know that you're gonna be okay anyway
always keep your heart locked tight don't let your mind retire oh, but i just couldn't take it i tried hard not to fake it but i fumbled it when it came down to the wire
and if it makes you less sad, i'll take your pictures all down every picture you paint, i will paint myself out it's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when i sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds so call it quits or get a grip say you wanted a solution you just wanted to be missed call me a safe bet i'm betting i'm not
traveling, swallowing dramamine feeling spaced, quicker than listerine i've said what i've said but i'm tired and that you killed the better part of me if you could just milk it for everything i've said what i've said but you know what i mean but i still can't focus on anything we kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves traveling, swallowing dramamine look at your face like you're killed in a dream and you think you've figured out everything i think i know my geography pretty damn well you said what you need so you'll get more if you could just milk it for everything i've said what i've said but you know what i mean but i can't still focus on anything
sometimes i hate every single stupid word you say sometimes i wanna slap you in your whole face (whoa oh oh) there's no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down i know life would suck without you (whoa oh oh) at the same time, i wanna hug you i wanna wrap my hands around your neck you're an asshole but i love you and you make me so mad, i ask myself why i'm still here, or where could i go you're the only love i've ever known but i hate you, i really hate you so much i think it must be true love, true love
money, get away get a good job with good pay and you're okay money, it's a gas grab that cash with both hands and make a stash new car, caviar, four star daydream, think i'll buy me a football team
will you miss me? when there's nothing to see? tell me, how did this come to be? and now there's no hope for you and me
my heart is beating in a different way been gone such a long time and i feel the same my heart is beating in a different way been gone such a long time
do you still believe? in you and me? are we all we could be? is it meant to be?
the wolves will chase you by the pale moonlight drunk and driven by a devil's hunger drive your son like a railroad spike into the water, let it pull him under don't you lift him, let him drown alive the good lord speaks like a rolling thunder let that fever make the water rise and let the river run dry
you crossed this line do you find it hard to say it with me tonight? i've walked these miles but i've walked 'em straight lined you'll never know what was like to be fine
i'm wasting my young years it doesn't matter if i'm chasing old ideas it doesn't matter if
i got a lot of loose ends i've done some damage i've cut the rope so it frayed and i got a lot of good friends keeping me distracted keeping my sanity safe
here, i stand on the edge of the ledges i've made looking for a steady hand here, i stand in the land full of rocks and the valleys trying to be a better man for you
but i drink a little too much it makes me nervous i've got my grandfather's blood and i take a little too much without giving back if blessed are the meek, then i'm cursed
here, i stand on the edge of the ledges i've made looking for a steady hand here, i stand in the land full of rocks and the valleys trying to be a better man for you
i want to learn how to love not just the feeling bear all the consequences i want to learn how to love and give it all back forgive me all that i've done
why should i care if you're near me give up all of my plans but who needs them when you mean everything i love the things that we should fear i'm not afraid of being here so much the same you make me helpless alone
you make me come you make me complete you make me completely miserable
seal my heart and break my pride i've nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide align my heart, my body, my mind to face what i've done and do my time
well, yes sir yes sir yes it was me i know what i've done 'cause i know what i've seen i went out back and got my gun, said, "you haven't met me i am the only son"
you can have manhattan i know it’s for the best i’ll gather up the avenues and leave them on your doorstep and i’ll tip toe away so you won’t have to say you heard me leave
you can have manhattan i know it’s what you want the bustle and the buildings the weather in the fall and i’ll bow out of place to save you some space for somebody new
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song for clay (disappear here); bloc party
i am trying to be heroic because all around me history sings
so i enjoy and i devour flesh and wine and luxury
but in my heart
i am lukewarm;
nothing ever really touches me
hero; regina spektor
don't need to be saved
i'm the hero of the story
don't need to be saved
disappear; motion city soundtrack
then you have to breathe in
lash yourself repeatedly
until it sticks, until it sticks
under the eyelids, carry on cadaver
festering interiors
all hollow breach and vapor silhouette
need medication, more medication
coursing through your interstates
all mad and great, confused and counterfeit
kamikaze, sear the blood inside me
guess who's got it figured out
i'll let you in on something secret
i can disappear
anytime i want to, time i feel you
shuffle through my skin
i am with you til the end
the wire; haim
try to make it what you want it to be
because i'm sorry i did what i did
but it came naturally
and i give it all away
just so i could say that
well, i know, i know, i know, i know
that you're gonna be okay anyway
well, i try to keep myself together
after all the opportunities
try to stay true to you and try to do
what you wanted from me
and i give it all away just to hear you say that
well, i know, i know, i know, i know
that you're gonna be okay anyway
always keep your heart locked tight
don't let your mind retire
oh, but i just couldn't take it
i tried hard not to fake it
but i fumbled it when it came down to the wire
bridges; broods
could have made you forget
i'd have given you them all
but it was all in your head
and we're burning all the bridges now
watching it go up in flames
and then we'd build it up again
and we're burning all the bridges now
cause it was sink or swim and i went down, down, down
everything i try to do, nothing seems to turn out right; the decemberists
it's just that everything i try to do, nothing seems to turn out right
a wink and a wave and you're off to your family's
i sit and watch as the taxi lights distantly fade
i guess i always thought it'd end this way
the boy who blocked his own shot; brand new
every picture you paint, i will paint myself out
it's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room,
when i sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds
so call it quits or get a grip
say you wanted a solution
you just wanted to be missed
call me a safe bet
i'm betting i'm not
dramamine; modest mouse
feeling spaced, quicker than listerine
i've said what i've said but i'm tired
and that you killed the better part of me
if you could just milk it for everything
i've said what i've said but you know what i mean
but i still can't focus on anything
we kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves
traveling, swallowing dramamine
look at your face like you're killed in a dream
and you think you've figured out everything
i think i know my geography pretty damn well
you said what you need so you'll get more
if you could just milk it for everything
i've said what i've said but you know what i mean
but i can't still focus on anything
this charming man; stars
when in this charming car
this charming man
why ponder life's complexities
when the leather runs smooth on the passenger seat?
i would go out tonight
but i haven't got a stitch to wear
this man said, "it's gruesome
that someone so handsome should care"
true love; p!nk ft. lily allen
sometimes i wanna slap you in your whole face (whoa oh oh)
there's no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down
i know life would suck without you (whoa oh oh)
at the same time, i wanna hug you
i wanna wrap my hands around your neck
you're an asshole but i love you
and you make me so mad, i ask myself
why i'm still here, or where could i go
you're the only love i've ever known
but i hate you, i really hate you
so much i think it must be
true love, true love
money; pink floyd
get a good job with good pay and you're okay
money, it's a gas
grab that cash with both hands and make a stash
new car, caviar, four star daydream,
think i'll buy me a football team
missing; the xx
when there's nothing to see?
tell me, how did this come to be?
and now there's no hope for you and me
my heart is beating in a different way
been gone such a long time and i feel the same
my heart is beating in a different way
been gone such a long time
do you still believe?
in you and me?
are we all we could be?
is it meant to be?
bottom of the river; delta rae
drunk and driven by a devil's hunger
drive your son like a railroad spike
into the water, let it pull him under
don't you lift him, let him drown alive
the good lord speaks like a rolling thunder
let that fever make the water rise
and let the river run dry
wasting my young years; london grammar
do you find it hard to say it with me tonight?
i've walked these miles but i've walked 'em straight lined
you'll never know what was like to be fine
i'm wasting my young years
it doesn't matter if
i'm chasing old ideas
it doesn't matter if
ledges; noah gundersen
i've done some damage
i've cut the rope so it frayed
and i got a lot of good friends
keeping me distracted
keeping my sanity safe
here, i stand on the edge of the ledges i've made
looking for a steady hand
here, i stand in the land full of rocks and the valleys
trying to be a better man
for you
but i drink a little too much
it makes me nervous
i've got my grandfather's blood
and i take a little too much
without giving back
if blessed are the meek, then i'm cursed
here, i stand on the edge of the ledges i've made
looking for a steady hand
here, i stand in the land full of rocks and the valleys
trying to be a better man
for you
i want to learn how to love
not just the feeling
bear all the consequences
i want to learn how to love
and give it all back
forgive me all that i've done
miserable; lit
give up all of my plans
but who needs them
when you mean everything
i love the things that we should fear
i'm not afraid of being here
so much the same
you make me helpless alone
you make me come
you make me complete
you make me completely miserable
dust bowl dance; mumford & sons
i've nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide
align my heart, my body, my mind
to face what i've done and do my time
well, yes sir yes sir yes it was me
i know what i've done 'cause i know what i've seen
i went out back and got my gun,
said, "you haven't met me i am the only son"
manhattan; sara bareilles
i know it’s for the best
i’ll gather up the avenues
and leave them on your doorstep
and i’ll tip toe away
so you won’t have to say
you heard me leave
you can have manhattan
i know it’s what you want
the bustle and the buildings
the weather in the fall
and i’ll bow out of place
to save you some space
for somebody new
you can have manhattan
cause i can’t have you